Regrets

I am so depressed. That is the only thing I can come up with. Losing her is the proving to be the hardest thing I have ever had to accept. When I think of her I gravitate between anger and deep sadness. The anger gets out of control and I do and say things that I regret afterwards which makes me really sad. I am able to deal with other losses in a constructive manner, or at least have been able to work through it somehow. I can’t seem to get over her. I was hoping to sleep through the night after going to bed at six thirty, but I am awake now and cannot sleep anymore. I can’t stop the tears. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to do about it. I tried a gestalt with my therapist last week, but I became so upset we had to stop. I’ve given myself a migraine. I don’t know what to do. The pain should be getting easier to handle, not more difficult as it is becoming. I hope to never fall in love with anyone ever again. I hope tomorrow will be a brighter day, if I can just make it through the night.