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I want to thank all of those people who have been showing me love and support during this, one of the most difficult events of my life thus far. It has been a rollercoaster of emotion. I realized in the days that I have been home the degree to which I was medicated in the hospital. I was delivered home by a good friend last friday afternoon. I took with me only the pills that were given to me in the hospital that morning. By Saturday evening the pain medication had worn off and my mood deteriorated accordingly. I finally took an ibuprofin 400 before going to bed on sunday evening which helped me sleep somewhat. The pain is mostly coming from the deep tissues and the nerves slowly reconnecting themselves with the outside world. The nerve sensation is like a hot wire the size of a hair is being pulled out of my flesh. It lasts just a few seconds but is extremely painful. The deep tissue pain is general, non specific nagging pain. Laying on the bed on my back with my legs slightly spread is my favorite position.

My beliefs in the practices that I have come to know within the last several months drove me to try to endure the recovery time without pain medication. I realized that I am not strong enough to make it through without pain medication. It is just too much to take.